Today I was thinking about how we go through life with all our ups and downs. I guess everyone is the same as me, when some days we feel on fire for the Lord and others we feel like our faith is almost gone. It is good to know that during our times of doubt and worry God is still right there by us with an open hand, guiding us through all the different storms of life. And though Satan may try to destroy us (and sometimes it seems like he's succeeding) when it comes down to it God will never let Satan destroy our souls. For our souls are Gods. Anyway, that made me think abit so I wrote the following.

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STORM

I am dejected, so below the heights that I should feel, 14
For Satan seems to buffet me and darkest thoughts do steal, 14
Those very thoughts I keep so deep are lost behind this shell. 14
This plastic smile, that only gives what others do compel. 14

I’m lost upon a sea of doubt 8
I’m sinking in these waves 6
I’m feeling there is no way out 8
I’m wanting One that saves. 6

My basic faith my core before the structure that I built 14
Erodes away and over time I’m saddled up with guilt. 14
And so my faith decides to hide and cowers in the dark. 14
I quake and tremble for I know that Satan’s made his mark. 14

Chorus

My life upon this sea will be just tossed both to and fro, 14
Whilst there above with outstretched hand is someone that I know. 14
For in those days of woe I know the Saviours hand did stay, 14
The hand of evil from my soul – and helped me on my way. 14

Not lost upon a sea of doubt 8
Not sinking in these waves 6
I realise there's one way out 8
It is the hand that saves. 6

(18/09/07)

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It's just so comforting to know that God's always there. That's what really pulls me back up when my faith is weak - I may have doubts about God, but God never has doubts about me.

Does anyone else go through the same thought process?

Fundy

All the time, bro. It's perfectly human to do this. Even Elijah felt this way. Job felt this way. Jonah felt this way. But, our faith has got be more than just a feeling--it has to be a relationship. I don't always have to feel the love of my wife to know that she cares. I don't always have to feel close to the Lord to know that He's real and that He's there. I honestly believe that we are made to go through these times of ups and downs just so we can more easily see how much we have to depend on Him for everything.

I know exactly how you feel. Been there several times myself (kind of feeling that way now).
It's a good thing God is more faithful then I am.

You are not alone in this Fundy.
My life has many ups and downs.
Special last time more downs.
Then I can't feel the presence of God and think He's not there for me.
Or I think God is dissapointed about me and that's why I can't feel His presence.
Then it seems satan is winning and I don't have the power to fight.
The song is beautiful Fundy.
Have you written the lyrics?

In a Christian magazine I have read something beautiful about an eagle.
I thought to share it here too, but then I have to translate it.
It tells how an eagle cares for his young ones, what happened with an eagle when he's 40 years old and how God will renew us.
If anyone is interested I will take the time to see if I can translate it.
It touched my heart.

Hi Yvonne, yes I wrote the lyrics. And yes, I'd like to hear the translation fo the eagle story, if it doesn't take you too long.

Everyone goes through times of doubts, Spurgeon et al. We had a London City Missionary speak at our church last night and he said he has doubts sometimes and finds knocking on doors the most difficult thing to do. But he also realises that before he was a Christian he would never stand up infront of 60 people (that number were there last night) and preach - it is only through the strength that God has given him that he can do that.

We have to put our faith in God - fully.

Fundy

We really have Fundy.
That takes time and God knows why.

I will take the time to translate the eagle story for you.
It's beautiful.

Fundy that's awesome ! Thank you for sharing that.
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during our times of doubt and worry God is still right there by us

But many times I think we tend to misunderstand how He's "right there" helping us, holding us, loving us, etc. I believe, and Scripture would support this, that it is through Believers who have made themselves available to those in need.
For example, I had a very rough month, but I got through it because God placed it on the hearts of those here at CHM to be there for me, pray for me and encourage me.... that's how God, directly through you guys, was there for me.